The Basics
Photo by Frank Zhang
12/2/22
Sometimes I forget how far I have come.
How brave I have been.
And how HARD it is for myself when I forget to practice the basics.
I start to get caught up in focusing on all that’s going wrong or how I need to prevent future mistakes.
Instead of just embracing and welcoming in the messiness of being an imperfect human, I reject parts of myself.
My feelings always tell me when I’m rejecting myself.
My feelings always SHOW me—very clearly—when I’m moving AWAY from the authentic desires of my heart.
My feelings always can be trusted.
My feelings always know some wise shit.
It’s my brain that keeps me away from that wisdom.
It’s my brain that tries to interfere with nature whenever it decides a feeling is wrong or out of place.
What if it’s impossible for a feeling to be out of place?
What if every single feeling I have is meant to be there and can NEVER be wrong?
This brings me back to the basics.
Trusting that my understanding is always limited.
I’m not SUPPOSED to know what’s right or what’s wrong.
I’m just supposed to support and understand myself,
Trusting that my journey is my responsibility.
And a part of that responsibility is consciously choosing my perspective instead of letting myself spin out in a default perspective of self rejection and shame.
It takes effort. It takes unconditional love and understanding. It takes work.
Trusting nature, reality, God.
It’s none of my business how the world works.
It’s my business to work in integrity with who I want to be.
I am not a helpless victim of my experience.
I am the powerful creator of it.
And I don’t work alone.
I work with the unfailing, infinite, divine energies in this universe.
I am supported.
I am exactly where I need to be.
I am so fucking strong.
I am safe to feel good and to appreciate all that I have without fearing I’ll get it wrong.
That’s impossible.
